This is the second official day of unemployment, I think. I got laid off last Wednesday, effective last Friday, but I didn't work after I got the news so....yeah. We'll just call it day 2. It makes all of my laziness look a little better.
So...it's been harder than I realized to relax. It's incredible to not have to be anywhere at a particular time, but it's unnerving, too. I think it's...being with myself after so long that's the issue. Having the time to do stuff I believe in or am passionate about is not all it's cracked up to be. After all, I didn't have to TRULY be passionate about much (relatively) when I was working because I always had the excuse of "oh, if I had more time, I would totally do that!". Now I don't have that excuse and there's a LOT of time. Additionally, because this is Thanksgiving week, it's not productive to apply for jobs! No one is at their desk! Or so I tell myself.
I've been thinking a lot about our police state, too, since I have the time to think about it. Although it is depressing, it is very interesting. It's interesting to think about the system we've created for a 'successful' life. We encourage people to be selfish and to only think of their own interests. In fact, if someone thinks of the greater good too much, it'll impede their money-making abilities. It's totally fucked up.
Anyway, that's probably enough for now. I will *try* to write every day. No promises as I've already forgotten what month it is and the last time I washed this bathrobe...
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